I applaud you for owning it.
That really sucks and I'm sorry about all that. Best of luck with getting things together going forward. It isn't easy. I wasn't in the best place for quite a while myself and I'm doing pretty well for myself now. So, there's hope for anyone if I can do it!
And sweet Easter Bunny above, if we could all go back and tell our 18-year-old selves things! I would have quite an earful for myself.
Also, sorry if I seemed to sassy above. I was being at least a bit sassy, I agree (and maybe a bit of an asshole, no knowing the whole story) but I was reacting to a long history of people using "wave slavery" when they're either just not happy with their job (but are just lazy assholes who won't do anything about it) or are people who who made poor choices and blame everyone but themselves. I think we can definitely see that doesn't apply to you, my friend!
-Samantha Jones, SatC