Journal: Entry for Jonielle
I sleep too much. I use sleeping pills to sleep, because I can't sleep without them. My problem is, I use them too often. I use them both at night and often during the day, so I can sleep. Sometimes I'm only awake a few hours a day.
I hate myself for doing it, but it helps with my suicide thoughts, and my anxiety, and I don't cut myself, which I've started again. Can't do either when I'm asleep.
I don't see any meaning with life. I just don't see how I can end my life. I can't take an overdose because I don't have enough medication for that, and all methods I can think of have a large possibility that I will survive, possibly with severe injuries.
I hate myself for doing it, but it helps with my suicide thoughts, and my anxiety, and I don't cut myself, which I've started again. Can't do either when I'm asleep.
I don't see any meaning with life. I just don't see how I can end my life. I can't take an overdose because I don't have enough medication for that, and all methods I can think of have a large possibility that I will survive, possibly with severe injuries.
sounds like a difficult time...
i'm not sure what to say that doesn't sound awfully cheesy or something you've heard before, but i've felt depressed this last week, like nothing i can do makes a difference. it sucks... but there is so much beauty and love in life. i watched the bbc plant earth series, and it made me feel different. i hope you feel better soon...