Oh hey guys, it's me. Long time, no see. How's it going? I love what you've done with the place, are those new curtains?
The carpet matches the drapes now, too
A lot of you already know this but I don't think I said it on this site, last autumn I got assaulted. I met a guy in a club, was drunk enough to head outside for some smooching and such and then he realised I was trans and beat the crap out of me. Most importantly, the police caught him and dealt with the matter so that part's ok. And on the whole I'm fine with it. Shit happened, it's in the past, whatever. But it has messed my life up one way which I'll come back to.
I'm so sorry, I wish I knew what to say. It pisses me off to no end thinking about one of our own getting beat up. I'm glad they caught the guy...hope they threw the book at him.
This kind of stuff has always scared me about the bar scene...how easy it is to find yourself in a dangerous situation with your judgement impaired
I'm unemployed, have been since I came back from Europe in October. At the moment I'm living with my parents to save cash and using a small amount of my savings to cover costs. The main problem with finding a job is the operation. I know that in a few months I'm going to need a long chunk of time off-work, and no-one's going to hire me with that in consideration. To make matters worse, my mum's just been hit with risk of redundancy, so there's a fairly good chance that by July everyone in the house will be out of work.
Can you work for a temp agency? I remember doing that a lot after college while I looked for something long-term. You can get short, one week assignments doing minor office or warehouse work and the like. Not much, but it helps pay the bills.
What really gets to me though is that I have almost no life. For the last 5 months, the only people I have spent time with have been my parents. Ok, so I'm doing a short dance course at the moment and it's awesome but it hasn't helped my social life.
Hey, join the club
I don't even have my parents to hang out with. On the plus side, it has left me with some time to focus on reviving some old hobbies, like writing. Do you have hobbies you can focus on while you wait for things to pick up?And here's where the assault comes in, I used to go out to bars every now and again. It was nice to feel like part of things, even if it was just going on around me. And sometimes guys would hit on me and even if I wasn't interested it was cool, it made me feel like a part of life. But since the assault I've been much more aware of guys not thinking I'm trans, so now I turn guys down even if I'd be interested. Like I don't even get a choice in it. And so the one time I went out for a drink after the assault, it was more depressing than staying at home.
I suppose the bar scene wouldn't be much fun for a trans person. I suppose the average guy you'd find in a bar wouldn't be interested if they knew you were trans, so it makes going there kind of pointless I'm guessing? Even if there wasn't the risk of assault, it would be hard to know who would be okay with it and who wouldn't be.
Are there other places you can meet people who would be more open to the idea? Are there other trans people you can talk to who could give you ideas?
Sorry if any of my advice here was stupid...this situation is a bit foreign to me
' />Oh, and the last month or so I've had major skin problems (this bit's gross, feel free to skip). I got eczema on my neck and face, it got infected, then it got crusty, then it got cracked, then it got scabby. It hurt to eat, it hurt to breathe, it hurt to smile. I finally saw a doctor about it last week and it's cleared up quite a lot, but not all the way yet.
Sounds crappy...even worse than the Eternal Sinus Infection from Hell...on and off since October. I really should get off my ass and get to the doctor
And there we have it. I'm sorry for the NSSPiest of NSSP posts but I really needed to say this somewhere and I didn't really know where else to go. Thanks for listening (assuming you did)
Hey, we all need to vent occasionally, and sometimes, this place is all we have
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!!! (NSSP)
- 04/03/2011 07:08:01 PM
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*hugs* that's really rough... i hope things start to look up soon!!
- 04/03/2011 07:43:28 PM
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Aw, Monkey, I'm so sorry
- 04/03/2011 08:10:50 PM
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You going to be in London any time soon?
- 04/03/2011 08:46:42 PM
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Well yeah, I do live here 
- 04/03/2011 09:34:43 PM
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- 04/03/2011 09:34:43 PM
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