I tried for whimsy, sometime around 2 PM. That's long gone though. This is just incredibly infuriating.
I got work done, I did shopping, I stayed away from twitter, did about an hour of podcasts, cleaned, and now listening to the author of the upcoming Gunpower: The Structure of American Violence as he decompresses playing a twitch shooting game. [ no this is not ironic ]
Fury is not in my brain right now, it is derealization, for I have felt the build up has been extremely real, but some people did not get it, and now it is no longer build up and we are just experiencing directly or at a distance where it feels artificial, fake, like a dream.
Anger / fury is just not clicking with my brain right now.

