I just need to get this out.
I am literary the worst friend in the world.
I decided today that it was too long since I´ve talked to a friend of mine. We had plans to meet at christmas, but I never heard from him, so I figured he´d been buissy. I decided to call him, and invite him out for breakfast this friday.
I called him, but the number was disconnected, I thought it was odd.
So I logged into facebook so send a message, and there it was... His page now was a memoriam page.
He died, during christmas. And I find out 5 months later, a friend who I talked to every week. I had not been to his facebookpage since christmas, I had not reacted to the lack of messages, or sms. I had not even seen the orbituary in the paper. The funeral was 5 months ago.
It´s such a devastating loss, this wonderful person, and I did not miss him enough in those 5 months that I find out he is dead until today.
I suck. Sure I am buissy, work is absolutly shit these days, and I am constantly tired. But this is absolute a low point even for me.
I missed my friends funeral because I did not know he was dead.
I am the worst friend in the world, he deserved so much better 
I know it's hard, but try not to blame yourself. You couldn't have known, and it wouldn't have changed anything if you'd found out sooner. Small comfort, I know.
It doesn't mean you didn't care about your friend. People, even good friends, fall out of touch every now and then.
hugs
