Journal: Entry for Ruby
not really blah, just semi bleh. took a short hiatus. fucked up a bit. nothing new. Things seem to be getting better slowly, the good days evening out a little more. Panic attack might be worse, but i can live with that. and when i say panic attack, I mean dealing with new people in umfamiliar surroundings. That tends to be rather unpleasant. plenty of mistakes i'd like to undo but can't. that i am finally letting go of. Letting go is hard. Maybe that's part of why i am feeling better, just stopped holding on. Christmas, the gifts wil be few, the family will be plenty. still makes me cry that i failed my daughter, but next christmas will be better. 2013 will be better.
What are you letting go of?
Your mistakes? Also, fail is such a strong word. On what way did you fail her?
Letting go of stupid dreams
not really blah, just semi bleh. took a short hiatus. fucked up a bit. nothing new. Things seem to be getting better slowly, the good days evening out a little more. Panic attack might be worse, but i can live with that. and when i say panic attack, I mean dealing with new people in umfamiliar surroundings. That tends to be rather unpleasant. plenty of mistakes i'd like to undo but can't. that i am finally letting go of. Letting go is hard. Maybe that's part of why i am feeling better, just stopped holding on. Christmas, the gifts wil be few, the family will be plenty. still makes me cry that i failed my daughter, but next christmas will be better. 2013 will be better.
I should have been better financially prepared. It's all good.