Thursday was nice, if busy. Came home from work, took Amy and our little one out to dinner at a nice local cafe. Picked up some stuff on the way home, including a big butterfly balloon for Melissa.
A very nice evening.
I get up the next morning, head to work. Have a very busy day there. Talk a couple of times with the wife on the phone. She sounds like she's having a decent day. 'Getting some housework done.'
I come home. The house is trashed. My daughter is gone. My wife says, "I'm leaving you. Moving to Karen's."
"What? Why?"
I don't understand, maybe a visit to a therapist and the family doctor? I generally try to keep my meltdowns in check until Shae is away. Sometimes i succeed and other times not so much. I have panic attacks and feel trapped occasionally. somehow I always thought having a caring partner, would alleviate such meltdowns, but apparently, that doesn't work, either, which leaves me a little bummed. I hope your family pulls through this. I honestly, truly do."I'm feeling trapped. Like a burden."
"But - what? Where did this come from? We haven't had a fight, anything? Don't do this!"
And out she goes.
Now I'm sitting alone in a big empty house. The back of my head is a bit sore (I snapped my head back at one point while upset and hit the bedroom door. Knocked a hole in it. Wimpy door.) My family is gone and my world pretty well shredded.
I was REALLY torn up last night. Lots of friends came by to spend time with me. Most of them think I should spend time trying to patch things up with Amy.
I don't know what to do. Not a clue. Yes, I still love my wife but no one has ever hurt me like this before. Never. Melissa? She's only three - she can't understand but she's smart and I'm sure she knows something isn't right.
What's next? I have no idea right now. The entire world changed without warning. I don't even know why. I mean if we'd been fighting or some such, that I could understand. This - this is out of nowhere and I can't.
I was pretty torn up all last night. Today? I don't know. People do get through things like this. I'm tired and don't particularly want to but I don't seem to have a lot of choice.
And then, yesterday - the world came apart
- 13/03/2010 02:09:42 PM
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Oh my goodness.
- 13/03/2010 04:40:30 PM
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Thanks Jen
- 16/03/2010 12:58:22 AM
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There is a little hope here...
- 14/03/2010 12:24:19 AM
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Some, yes.
- 14/03/2010 06:43:49 AM
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That is a tough little girl there.
- 14/03/2010 05:43:51 PM
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How in touch were you?
- 14/03/2010 08:14:57 AM
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I just read Helene's, Tom's and Damookster's replies.
- 15/03/2010 01:53:17 AM
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It's why one of the first things I did was post here when I was together enough to do so.
- 15/03/2010 06:18:54 AM
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Jesus.
- 15/03/2010 01:44:18 PM
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It's looking up a bit
- 15/03/2010 03:50:25 PM
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Re: It's looking up a bit
- 15/03/2010 05:12:02 PM
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Re: It's looking up a bit
- 15/03/2010 05:13:03 PM
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Re: It's looking up a bit
- 15/03/2010 05:13:30 PM
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Hmm. Those were supposed to be edits. Admin? Clean up in aisle SW!
- 15/03/2010 05:18:13 PM
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Lose that zero and take her to court for abducting your child *NM*
- 15/03/2010 05:14:26 PM
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Sounds like things have calmed down a bit now, but that was a shitty thing to do, that's for sure.
- 16/03/2010 01:09:00 AM
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