did people stop telling you how wonderful you were and what great potential you had and stop caring if you weren't living up to it?
I just noticed it myself.
People used to tell me how wonderful I was all the time and then I guess I was about 25 or so when it stopped. I started getting all frantic about not getting enough attention and stuff. I'm sure some of you remember.
Anyway... it just struck me what might have brought on the change and I was wondering if anyone else experienced the same sort of thing...
So when exactly:
Did that happen to you?
I just noticed it myself.
People used to tell me how wonderful I was all the time and then I guess I was about 25 or so when it stopped. I started getting all frantic about not getting enough attention and stuff. I'm sure some of you remember.
Anyway... it just struck me what might have brought on the change and I was wondering if anyone else experienced the same sort of thing...
So when exactly:
Did that happen to you?
About the same time, I believe. I think the last time it came up was visiting some friends with moondog, when our buddys wife (whom I was meeting for the first time) said something about me being interesting and my response was "I'm a cautionary tale is what I am. "
Did you lose your virginity?
After that....
Did you fall in love?
Before that.
Did you break someone's heart?
I'm not sure I ever have. There's really only one case that MIGHT qualify, but since that person will almost certainly never speak to me again, I don't expect I'll ever know. It worries me from time to time, but wtf can I do about it?
Did you realize how much you didn't know?
Oh, gosh, I'm not sure. I may not have ever realized. I know there's a LOT of it, but even a vague figure I wouldn't want to guess.
Did you realize you had to start over?
March 1995.
Did you lose your way?
Sophomore year of HS. Not sure I've found it again even now; I hope so....
Did you abandon your past?
I haven't. I don't want to relive it, and have managed too many times, so I try to stay very conscious of mistakes I want to avoid in future.
Did you stop looking forward and start looking back?
1987. I try not to do that anymore because I've noticed that all too often the period I idealize as the best, or among the best, is the one I considered so bleak when idealizing the last one. Some of us really do peak in HS though; hopefully I'm not one of them.
Did you lose your first love?
I don't think I ever had her, she just had me and was too decent to take advantage or be mean about it.
Did you give up?
Oh, gosh, probably around '92. Fortunately I've given up giving up, because it's the only way to ever truly lose. I wasted about a decade finding that out though, and a lot of time and opportunities with many good people, some of the best of whom I'll never see again in this world. So, yeah, the giving up, not a good thing.
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Last First in wotmania Chat
Slightly better than chocolate.
Love still can't be coerced.
Please Don't Eat the Newbies!
LoL. Be well, RAFOlk.
When exactly...
- 15/02/2010 04:20:31 AM
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Re: Actually, I'm still being told that. In less grandiose terms. But i'm not yet 25.
- 15/02/2010 10:29:21 AM
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Re: When exactly...
- 15/02/2010 02:34:41 PM
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I only remember being told that a few times, when I was in my late teens.
- 16/02/2010 09:07:58 PM
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