I have a serious fear of pregnancy/childbirth. I'd say it was rational, not pathological, if not for my morbid fascination with all that stuff. Every once in a while, I'll spend hours reading about all the awful things that happen to you and retraumatize myself again. Worst, there's a chance I'll vomit all that information back up. This is how my boyfriend knows what an episiotomy is.
So I'd like to share with you the latest thing I've found on the Internet. A blog with submissions of women speaking about how pregnancy and giving birth changed their bodies. With pictures. I feel so bad for them. It's so awful and depressing. Not because good looks are essential to happiness, but they experience a permanent loss, their bodies are warped forever,the lack of control over what happens to them.
That same experience is also a part of the phenomena known as "age" or "injury". Stuff happens. It's part of life. Deal with it and move on.
“Tolerance is the virtue of the man without convictions.” GK Chesteron
Inde muagdhe Aes Sedai misain ye!
Deus Vult!
*MySmiley*