I awoke and panic nearly descended on me -- strange dreams again -- my head throbbed and for a moment I saw clearly with the weighty suspicion of real epiphany: there is no such thing as Outside -- Then, it's all really in my mind? How to cope? Took a few slow breaths. It is neither in my mind nor outside, I remembered as consciousness won back in. That must be what they meant by the mysterious pass, the gateless gate. Will have to keep looking for it. So don't worry; I'm doing alright. I can go on with this thing called living.