It's very hard to know.

Sharon still wants to be friends with me and still IMs me etc. I think she still values the friendship but what's weird is that I still get the sense it's something more than that but I don't know WHAT. Maybe she doesn't either.

Today was HORRIBLE stress wise between work, the fallout from the last day or so, stuff with my ex and my daughter AND two of my closest friends and my daughter deciding to have a major melt down was just the straw that busted the camel's back.

And yet - Sharon IM'ed me to check on me and I wound up telling her that my feelings were a bit hurt and explaining. She was very nice about it while still remaining vague. So I don't know what to think. Eh, whatever. I'm just going to treat her as a friend from here on in. Easier that way.



So it seems. I mean, the ex and I had some problems but I thought things were starting to get better. Apparently not. What bugs me about it was how utterly disposable our marriage was to her. I don't look at marriage that way so maybe that's for the best.



Up here after living together that long you're effectively married. You just don't have to wait a year to get divorced, that's about the only difference.

And I know what you mean. Four years is a long time. Perhaps he didn't realize himself? It doesn't make the flake out any easier to take but maybe makes it more understandable.

I really don't know. I don't think I've ever actually dumped anyone.



Everyone's different. I don't mind dating but I don't like not knowing where I stand with someone. If it's clear, it's a lot easier to deal with. So much of dating seems to be mind games with people. Not always but with a lot of folks. (NOT with me. I can't stand that kind of business which is why I eventually fessed up to Sharon).