I was 6 weeks pregnant. I just got up and left, and told one of the other people to tell my boss I was feeling unwell. I can't even remember if I switch off the computer before I walked out, I was desperately trying not to look anyone in their eyes. The boss saw me at the parking lot, and I said nothing. And I don't know what to tell him if he asks me tomorrow why I just suddenly left work. I've only worked there for 3 months, and had not told anyone there I was expecting.
I just couldn't stay. I had bled through my clothes, and I felt like the world was coming down, and I was so angry, cause I had been so looking forward to the baby. Silly enough I was angry at it for leaving me like that.
We hadn't even told the family yet. I was going to do that after the ultrasound in two weeks.
I just don't know what to do now... wait or try again?
It's so odd that this little thing can affect you so much. I mean, it hadn't even had the time to develop heartbeat, but still we had discussed names, made plans for the pregnancy, the birth, how to tell the grandparents...
We only have one frozen embryo left now.
I'm not even sure why I am writing this, I just need to tell someone...
I just couldn't stay. I had bled through my clothes, and I felt like the world was coming down, and I was so angry, cause I had been so looking forward to the baby. Silly enough I was angry at it for leaving me like that.
We hadn't even told the family yet. I was going to do that after the ultrasound in two weeks.
I just don't know what to do now... wait or try again?
It's so odd that this little thing can affect you so much. I mean, it hadn't even had the time to develop heartbeat, but still we had discussed names, made plans for the pregnancy, the birth, how to tell the grandparents...
We only have one frozen embryo left now.
I'm not even sure why I am writing this, I just need to tell someone...
Somehow I missed that you were even pregnant. That's awful, especially with no one around to turn to for comfort; I don't blame you a bit for leaving. I'm more glad than ever you do have your son though, because you are VERY much a mommy IMHO. Doesn't make everything OK, but you not being a mom would just be wrong. Sigh. I wish I knew a way to make it better. You DO still have the remaining embryo, but are probably experiencing a bit much physical and emotional trauma to implant it soon. Give yourself time to grieve, to heal, and to regain some focus on the wonderful things that make life worthwhile, like your current family. It's not OK, but it will be, and you'll remain in my thoughts and prayers, and hopefully you'll have cheese and other popcorn along with pretzels and creme filled chocolate cakes soon. *continues hugging*
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Last First in wotmania Chat
Slightly better than chocolate.
Love still can't be coerced.
Please Don't Eat the Newbies!
LoL. Be well, RAFOlk.
I lost my baby at work today...
27/05/2010 02:10:39 PM
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I'm so sorry, hun. *hugs fiercely*
27/05/2010 02:33:25 PM
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I'm so sorry to hear that... it sounds like you've miscarried before and have fertility problems
28/05/2010 10:23:03 AM
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Re: I'm so sorry to hear that... it sounds like you've miscarried before and have fertility problems
29/05/2010 12:04:19 AM
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