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Danae-Log: So. What makes life worth living? Danae al'Thor Send a noteboard - 08/05/2010 05:04:26 PM
No, really. Why do we, you, I, stick around? Love? Sex? Hugsies from Mommy? Money? Books? LSD? Babies? Duty?

I don't want to be talked out of committing suicide, mostly because I'm not committing suicide. But I am alive today mostly because of some vague principle that dying is probably worse than all this, my parents and brother would be sad, and I'm in therapy so that I don't commit suicide. So far as results go, it's working.

But over the last few months, I gotta tell you. I don't see the point. It's just going to be more of this... this struggle. Day after day. Why am I doing this? Obviously I'm missing something. Something that makes life "worth living" in a concrete sense, not just in this vague amorphous way.

What am I missing? I've been told to "cheer up" and the only reason I'm not happy is that I'm "not trying". It's like I "want to be miserable". And I look at my little white pills that help me get out of bed in the morning, at my very nice therapist who tells me not to be so angry at myself for not being happy or accomplished or okay... I don't know how to do this "trying" or "doing" or "cheerying".

So. If you feel up to it, if you want to, if you feel like it. Share your joy with me, for a bit, please?
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~Roh
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Danae-Log: So. What makes life worth living? Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 05:04:26 PM 1573 Views
The good bits Camilla - 08/05/2010 05:17:37 PM 1187 Views
Re: There are cannibals out there who believe(d) that if you ate bits of your enemy/someone, Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 05:24:16 PM 1059 Views
Re: There are cannibals out there who believe(d) that if you ate bits of your enemy/someone, Camilla - 08/05/2010 05:27:27 PM 1010 Views
Re: It's because the muscles haven't gotten all developed and stringy yet. Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 05:28:44 PM 1122 Views
Re: It's because the muscles haven't gotten all developed and stringy yet. Camilla - 08/05/2010 05:30:42 PM 946 Views
Re: I think lots of us had pre-construed that anyway. Sorry. Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 05:35:16 PM 1069 Views
Re: I think lots of us had pre-construed that anyway. Sorry. Camilla - 08/05/2010 05:45:35 PM 1009 Views
Re: It said: Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 06:01:59 PM 1015 Views
Re: It said: Camilla - 09/05/2010 12:04:37 AM 887 Views
Excellent reply *NM* ironclad - 10/05/2010 12:34:10 PM 610 Views
Try meditation. Just breathing exercises and relaxation. Tom - 08/05/2010 05:24:34 PM 1138 Views
Re: Um, I meditate. And I manage quote fine without CDs to do it. *NM* Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 05:27:28 PM 634 Views
I would posit you're not doing a good job if you're considering suicide. *NM* Tom - 09/05/2010 04:39:05 AM 633 Views
Re: I'm not considering suicide! It says so in my post! I'm so annoyed with people who assume I am! Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:23:37 AM 1127 Views
Why do you need to affirmatively say you're not considering suicide, then? Tom - 09/05/2010 05:41:50 AM 1140 Views
Re: Because I wanted to make clear my problem, and ask for a little help that wasn't about fixing me Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:50:27 AM 1077 Views
Suicide is scary A Deathwatch Guard - 08/05/2010 05:28:00 PM 1168 Views
Re: It's a self-propagating cycle, feeling bad. Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 05:34:13 PM 1048 Views
Dunno p hart - 08/05/2010 06:01:06 PM 1170 Views
Re: That's a never-ending line. *NM* Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 06:09:40 PM 540 Views
I can only think of one reason Bramhodoulos - 08/05/2010 06:43:11 PM 1207 Views
Re: I feel a little ignorant. Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 06:45:47 PM 967 Views
Yeah, that one (typos ) Bramhodoulos - 08/05/2010 06:46:37 PM 1120 Views
Frankly, I agree, but it's not something of which people can be really be "convinced. " Joel - 12/05/2010 12:43:29 AM 1174 Views
No Bramhodoulos - 12/05/2010 12:53:42 AM 1088 Views
Oh, I totally agree. Joel - 12/05/2010 01:05:29 AM 991 Views
Ah, so you used "convinced" as a verb and not as a participle *NM* Bramhodoulos - 12/05/2010 09:30:59 AM 610 Views
Right. Joel - 12/05/2010 12:17:59 PM 1353 Views
personally LadyLorraine - 08/05/2010 06:45:45 PM 1071 Views
Re: How many horses do you have? Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 06:48:27 PM 968 Views
I have two LadyLorraine - 08/05/2010 06:55:39 PM 1112 Views
That's an insanely hard question Danae SilverWarder - 08/05/2010 08:53:06 PM 1164 Views
Re: Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 08:58:50 PM 1232 Views
Ah, I see SilverWarder - 08/05/2010 09:19:22 PM 1100 Views
Re: I think the difference between you and me in some ways is... Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 09:27:17 PM 948 Views
Well - I'm glad it's of some help :-) SilverWarder - 09/05/2010 09:39:20 AM 1010 Views
So what makes you think death is any better? *NM* Dark Knight - 08/05/2010 09:11:46 PM 584 Views
Re: Um, since I am not contemplating suicide, it's not an issue. Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 09:16:39 PM 1166 Views
Answers lie within Dark Knight - 08/05/2010 09:43:01 PM 1105 Views
Re: I rather like that idea myself. Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 10:02:34 PM 1079 Views
No easy answer. Beqi - 08/05/2010 09:26:52 PM 897 Views
Re: Dude, my new pills have cured my insomnia, it is awesome. I'd forgotten about that. Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 09:28:54 PM 1047 Views
I'm probably not the right person to answer this question... damookster - 08/05/2010 09:34:35 PM 1296 Views
Re: Don't take this the wrong way... Danae al'Thor - 08/05/2010 09:36:21 PM 1147 Views
I'm praying for you right now... vandevere - 10/05/2010 10:08:32 PM 1027 Views
I just wanna know what's next, 'cause it tends to be baffling. (beat.) - 08/05/2010 10:18:16 PM 1165 Views
Re: Do you believe in reincarnation? You might be able to! *NM* Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:24:17 AM 495 Views
That would be way awesome. (beat.) - 09/05/2010 11:53:40 PM 1125 Views
Re: I haven't read it. Or heard of it. Let us know what it's like! *NM* Danae al'Thor - 10/05/2010 08:36:41 AM 636 Views
It's small, sweet and related to all this stuff here. *NM* (beat.) - 10/05/2010 12:09:47 PM 545 Views
Experience Larry - 08/05/2010 10:44:08 PM 1170 Views
Re: You need to grow a beard, Larry. Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:25:20 AM 1086 Views
Who's to say I haven't? Larry - 09/05/2010 11:56:56 AM 925 Views
I'm fairly certain there isn't some magic "thing." nossy - 08/05/2010 10:45:34 PM 1001 Views
Re: That's interesting. Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:26:34 AM 1041 Views
Re: That's interesting. nossy - 09/05/2010 09:12:38 PM 969 Views
Because I can't be world dictator if I am dead random thoughts - 08/05/2010 10:47:37 PM 991 Views
Re: I think it's a RAFOnaut thing, to want to be world dictator. Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:28:01 AM 1092 Views
Helping other people. *NM* BlackAdder - 08/05/2010 10:51:28 PM 496 Views
Re: If you don't mind my asking, Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:31:22 AM 1047 Views
Re: If you don't mind my asking, BlackAdder - 09/05/2010 10:11:43 PM 1051 Views
Can't help you there. jh - 08/05/2010 11:22:01 PM 1032 Views
Re: When the theses are done they can be fun! *NM* Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:31:48 AM 550 Views
Hmmm. No. jh - 09/05/2010 04:44:44 PM 1113 Views
Some days it just boils down to duty. Tashmere - 09/05/2010 12:52:06 AM 1163 Views
Re: The no expectations thing is HARD. To do on a moment-to-moment basis. Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 05:43:00 AM 1115 Views
I was in a slightly bleak mood when I wrote the first reply. I need to amend it. Tashmere - 13/05/2010 12:59:09 AM 1197 Views
That there will be a sixth season of Supernatural? Sophy - 09/05/2010 06:30:34 AM 1122 Views
Re: I actually haven't watched anything since xxx released ddd and told aaa he'd say ssss. Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 10:28:03 AM 920 Views
love, connection with others, the awe of being alive in the world temeraire - 09/05/2010 07:17:34 AM 924 Views
Re: You don't have to find stuff for me! Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 10:31:00 AM 1003 Views
Love is all that keeps me sane. rebelaessedai - 09/05/2010 07:31:44 AM 1047 Views
Re: *NM* Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 10:31:18 AM 469 Views
Whatever you decide it does smaug - 09/05/2010 10:17:09 AM 1037 Views
Re: I have not seen that, that is KICKASS. Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 10:38:34 AM 1065 Views
*flourishes hat* smaug - 09/05/2010 08:44:33 PM 1203 Views
That video is excellent, thanks! *NM* SilverWarder - 09/05/2010 05:52:11 PM 476 Views
Bad dancing is too awesome to not be shared *NM* smaug - 09/05/2010 08:46:27 PM 529 Views
Yep, it's one of those clips that makes you think mankind isn't that bad after all *NM* ironclad - 11/05/2010 09:20:38 AM 590 Views
The small things. Rebekah - 09/05/2010 10:45:46 AM 1140 Views
Re: Dammit, Rebekah, now I have a song playing in my head. Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 11:06:46 AM 895 Views
waitwaitwait Camilla - 09/05/2010 12:18:13 PM 914 Views
Re: Read the review when I post it! Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 03:19:14 PM 1100 Views
Carnal bliss, hydrocodone and brownies Vodalus - 09/05/2010 10:47:24 AM 1179 Views
Re: hydrocodone = pain meds? Paracetamol? Danae al'Thor - 09/05/2010 11:10:22 AM 1004 Views
It's an opiod often combined with paracetamol. Vodalus - 09/05/2010 05:46:50 PM 1208 Views
To crush your enemies, to see them driven before you... TaskmasterJack - 10/05/2010 01:40:14 AM 1006 Views
Re: Make sure your dentures are in. *NM* Danae al'Thor - 10/05/2010 08:35:49 AM 458 Views
Hmm. I'm trying to seriously consider your question. Nate - 10/05/2010 02:21:32 AM 1051 Views
Re: As a neutral third party, I hate that girl. Danae al'Thor - 10/05/2010 04:47:06 PM 1090 Views
Spring-time forests with flowers *NM* Floffe - 10/05/2010 05:59:46 AM 483 Views
Re: *NM* Danae al'Thor - 10/05/2010 08:41:19 AM 468 Views
I stick around for updates to the Danae-Log! Avendesora - 10/05/2010 12:14:43 PM 1147 Views
Re: Dude. Danae al'Thor - 10/05/2010 04:44:24 PM 948 Views
Heh. click the link. Avendesora - 10/05/2010 05:45:53 PM 1105 Views
Re: <whistles> Bayyyyybeee. Danae al'Thor - 10/05/2010 06:04:51 PM 1000 Views
Perv. *NM* Avendesora - 11/05/2010 02:00:43 AM 574 Views
Re: Danae-Log: So. What makes life worth living? lyringlas - 11/05/2010 09:28:09 PM 1017 Views
Love and the people who share it still seem the best answer. Joel - 12/05/2010 01:01:51 AM 1018 Views
I don't think it's a question to ask, but a decision to make Helene - 14/05/2010 07:38:46 PM 1174 Views
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