Community Messageboard 3: Thank you for sharing it. by rebelaessedai

Thank you for sharing it. rebelaessedai - 14/04/2004 03:54:22 PM

The whole truth of the matter is that you're right about the depressed mind. It doesn't consider the idea that it's a selfish act, or that those who care about them will be heartbroken, or if it does, it doesn't care. That's not to say that person is a bad person. It's because of the serotonin levels in their brain. That's all it is. I'm wired the same way, and my family is full of alcoholics and pillheads and heroin addicts. I'm none of those things. I take prozac on occasion, when I need to (I don't have insurance and can't afford it every month) and I would like to say thank you. After one night- the first night of my life- that I even IMAGINED myself doing it, I mean I didn't even consider it that night!- I was like, well, if i'm going to do this, I better get it over with. I wouldn't last three years like that. There's no "temporary problem": my whole life is a problem. I'm so cynical and opinionated and hateful of my entire species because we're so full of ourselves, and I don't WANT to fit in to society.
How am I going to get out of this? I have no idea. I am, however, sure that I am not going to kill myself. The next time I feel that bad, I'm calling a suicide hotline. I'll do it, and I know I will. I won't even play around. The next time that thought enters my head, I'm going straight to a professional.

Bonded to SilverWarder

Me: Why is Danny Gokey making that heart signal? Does he love me like Jesus loves me?
Mr. rebel: Yeah, fictionally.

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A personal question for those of you who wish to answer rebelaessedai - 13/04/2004 02:59:16 PM 262 Views

One of my friends is in hospital. p hart - 13/04/2004 03:05:23 PM 47 Views

Re: One of my friends is in hospital. wheeloftimefan - 13/04/2004 03:18:51 PM 31 Views

To be fair i read this somewhere just cant rememeber where. *NM* p hart - 13/04/2004 03:24:23 PM 5 Views

on problems and solutions.... damookster - 13/04/2004 04:05:59 PM 31 Views

No your problems are not eternal but death is. *NM* p hart - 14/04/2004 12:33:05 PM 3 Views

I think that, rebelaessedai - 14/04/2004 03:37:38 PM 7 Views

my condolences. Druegan - 15/04/2004 02:16:12 AM 5 Views

actually... Diary - 13/04/2004 03:33:00 PM 57 Views

I've never even thought about it. *NM* The Logic Ninja - 13/04/2004 03:58:38 PM 2 Views

Never considered it. Wulf`gar - 13/04/2004 04:01:57 PM 22 Views

Sadly... rebelaessedai - 14/04/2004 03:44:02 PM 9 Views

Nah never really thought about it. *NM* Tredogg - 13/04/2004 04:05:19 PM 2 Views

6-7 years ago. DarKMatter - 13/04/2004 04:38:27 PM 17 Views

my story Ella - 13/04/2004 04:53:22 PM 28 Views

Thank you for sharing it. rebelaessedai - 14/04/2004 03:54:22 PM 5 Views

Only one thing could make me do that... ironclad - 13/04/2004 07:18:23 PM 23 Views

Interesting. rebelaessedai - 14/04/2004 03:57:57 PM 5 Views

Fascinating. CalmB4theStorm - 13/04/2004 07:25:02 PM 20 Views

Answers Danu - 13/04/2004 08:01:01 PM 22 Views

Wow. rebelaessedai - 14/04/2004 04:06:35 PM 11 Views

Re: Wow. Danu - 14/04/2004 06:05:19 PM 9 Views

hmm themagictrolloc - 13/04/2004 09:37:19 PM 11 Views

Surely. Luna - 13/04/2004 09:44:34 PM 16 Views

Never thought about it, except....... Druid - 14/04/2004 01:27:09 AM 16 Views

Never seriously. nomad - 14/04/2004 12:25:00 PM 3 Views

A personal, if somewhat morbid, answer. Druegan - 15/04/2004 02:50:45 AM 10 Views

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