when in a situation where you think about the possibility of ending your own life, your problems have immediate and long term implications that cannot be escaped, and you cannot find an answer anywhere so you think it's easier just to end it.
Everyone's different, of course. I am one of those types of people who would never do it unless my serotonin levels got so low NO ONE could save me. Last week I thought they were that low. I couldn't feel comfortable inside my own skin. I had no answers for anything. I had no one I could confide in that would not try to put their own spin on my problems (I need answers for me, not you, thanks.) Had I done it, I'd have researched how to do it the quickest and the most accurately. That way, I'd have done it either all the way or not at all.
I'm not far from feeling suicidal still, a week later, but anything compared to that empty feeling is a million times better.


Bonded to SilverWarder

Me: Why is Danny Gokey making that heart signal? Does he love me like Jesus loves me?
Mr. rebel: Yeah, fictionally.