i'm getting help for it at the moment. I think most people ever thought about suicide and didn't do it. I was really down a few months ago, for various reasons, and at a blank moment i took 9 painkillers, i don't remember much of the night afterwards, i just remember waking up with a huge headache and the feeling i had been stupid. i'm very glad it didn't work.
An other thing i have, and the thing i'm going to get a lot of help for is a sort of panic attacks. I'm really scared of feeling alone. and when i'm outside and feel alone i see myself die. It is really scary as i see myself drown in ever water i see, or hang in ever tree, or get crushed by ever car. The scariest part is that a part of me wishes it was really happening. Luckly i don't have many of those attacks, only once every while when i'm feeling really bad.
i can understand really well what you mean by being younger and thinking only sick people would do that. A year ago i had never even thought about suicide. A lot of things happened in the past 7 months that really changed my life, in good and bad ways. But i'm really glad with how my life looks like now, and i'm trying to become just as happy with myself.

i hope that answered your questions