Of course, I have a hard time remembering stuff like that; I can't really imagine what stuff was like in the past, or what it will be like in the future. I do know, however, that I was a terrible writer who thought he was great, a loudmouth who thought he was funny, and an acceptance-seeking loner who tried to tell himself he was popular. Now, I ca actually write halfway decently (I think, but then, I've thought so before), I actually think before I say something, and I'm actually happy that I'm more or less a loner. Wotmania has, inarguably, changed me for the better.
Stories grow from everywhere, they’re like some hideous alien moss that can just sprout up.
--Joss Whedon
Who would dare?
Wotmania helped me see that his drug abuse wasn't going to get better and that I was enabling him. It was also an escape from that drama. And a support group when I finally moved out with my baby to my mom's. 14 years later I'm in a healthy happy marriage 10 years strong with two boys. A teenager who knows everything and a four year old who does as well. I never have to think for my self again! 
Also I found my Grimbear lifelong partner boyfriend husband love machine! I'm definitely better for wotmania. So many wonderful people who enrich my life daily!!